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finding-jodi:

FINDING-JODI’S GIVEAWAY

This time I thought I’d make it a bit of a surprise and really recovery orientated in order to promote recovery and health.

It will include recovery food items, health items, distractions, letters, books, fun things to do etc :)

Rules

It will end on the 5th October 8pm British time

You can like and reblog as much as you like but only reblogs will count

I will ship worldwide

HAPPY REBLOGGING <3

ONE WEEK

There will be a runner up now also :)

Yesterday’s intake:
Breakfast ~ 2 weetabix with soya milk and a chopped apple
Lunch ~ stuffed peppers topped with 20g of cheeeese (!) then some yoghurt with honey
Snack ~ a wholemeal pitta bread with chopped banana
Dinner ~ quorn and vegetable stir fry with noodles and black bean sauce, then 2 squares of dark chocolate
Snack ~ way too much alcohol

Yesterday was a bit rubbish from start to finish. I woke up in a really bad mood and carried it through the day, then proceeded to get so drunk that I was in my bed being sick by 11pm - woooow. I’m really embarrassed, everyone’s seen me like this so many times already and they’re actually going to hate me soon, I really need to stop drinking so much and so often. Having to o back to Edinburgh today for my therapy appointment is kind of making me want to cry, I’m not doing very well at the moment I guess.
I’m determined though that I need to change this. I need to start gaining weight, I need to give myself a healthy body with thick hair and bones that work. I need to be able to cope with things like cocktail nights and flat meals without freaking out. I’m scared that everyone’s going to see me putting on weight and think I’m getting lazy and greedy, but you know what, if anyone thinks I’m better in this vulnerable, paranoid and unhealthy state then fuck them. Getting myself through weight restoration only shows that I am strong and I am brave and that’s what I want to be.

TW drunken rambles sorry

I hate this. Recovery is going so shittily for me. I’m nearly a year In and I’m still only eating enough to maintain this crappy slightly below healthy bmi. Every time i get motivated some shit happens and makes me feel like I deserve absolutely nothing. I want to be able to try, to be strong like everyone else. I want boobs, I want a decent ass, I want to be able to eat fucking normally. I want to feel worthy and normal and I want to be stable enough that such tiny stuff like this doesn’t just kill me for a night. I hate it all I hate it all why am I so bad at this

Intakeeee:
Breakfast ~ porridge with dried apple, hazelnuts, pumpkin seeds and raisins
Lunch ~ a tin of tuna with steamed broccoli, mushrooms and onion
Dinner ~ 2 wholemeal wraps with lentil tomato stew, then yoghurt with a nakd bar
Snack ~ protein bounce ball and lots of alcohol

Today started off so motivated but after the massive breakfast I freaked out for a bit hense the shitty small lunch and cramming things in in the evening… Still I’m proud of this and now I’m off to play lord of the rings drinking games #STUDENTLIFE

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finding-jodi:

FINDING-JODI’S GIVEAWAY

This time I thought I’d make it a bit of a surprise and really recovery orientated in order to promote recovery and health.

It will include recovery food items, health items, distractions, letters, books, fun things to do etc :)

Rules

It will end on the 5th October 8pm British time

You can like and reblog as much as you like but only reblogs will count

I will ship worldwide

HAPPY REBLOGGING <3

Just realised I hadn’t actually posted any photos, so hey this is the beeeeautiful campus at Stirling University also known as my home. My appointment yesterday was a bit crap, TW lost a little weight, nothing drastic but I felt a bit shitty for it because I feel like in eating tonnes already. Therapist also brought up some stuff that I really related to and it set me on edge a bit. Today’s been a bit better though and I’m managing my increase :)