Got an appointment this morning, then this afternoon I’m meeting a couple of friends and my best friend is gonna be staying with me tonight. I’ve really been needing to see her and she always cheers me up so this should be good! Kind of nervous for my weigh in, I feel like I’ve gained too much too fast but I suppose if anything it’s just going to confirm that I’m wrong.

Got an appointment this morning, then this afternoon I’m meeting a couple of friends and my best friend is gonna be staying with me tonight. I’ve really been needing to see her and she always cheers me up so this should be good! Kind of nervous for my weigh in, I feel like I’ve gained too much too fast but I suppose if anything it’s just going to confirm that I’m wrong.

I’m going to be honest and say that I’m actually really anxious today. For about a month now I’ve been eating a ‘safe’ amount which maintains my weight. Now for the last two days I’ve increased again because I still have a little bit to gain in order to be further into the healthy category. It just feels like too much and it’s too indulgent but aaah I need this and it’s okay.

nice afternoon in sunny scotland looking after my next door neighbours pet puppy :) felt really happy after my lunch because it was really balanced - and not my disordered version of ‘balance’ where there’s zero fat - I had a tuna and lettuce sandwich on wholemeal bread, a nectarine and a magnum. Snack is gonna be custard then tonight I’m having turkey mince chilli with brown rice and broccoli, plus another snack.

surpriseforj asked:

Hi! Can you and your followers do me a favor? My friend/crush is going through a rough time and gets stuck in his head/overthinks a lot. If y'all can submit a positive message for him it would mean a lot. The blog is a surprise. Thanks so much! =)

Absolutely and I think that’s a great idea :) anyone following me, go for this!

eyestowardsheaven asked:

Hey:) If this is triggering I'm really sorry and u don't have to answer, but when you were very very sick, how much hair did you loose? Cus I'm loosing handfuls but I have SUPER thick hair so it's not noticible at all, and idk if it's normal or if I should be worried.... Thank u so much

Hi love,
Thank you for the trigger warning but don’t worry it’s fine! :) my hair has always been quite thin but I did tend to lose a lot when I showered etc. during my ED. as I’ve gained weight and began to eat more it has thickened back up to what it was before. Try not to worry about it and just think of thick hair as one of many recovery perks! Good luck lovely :) xxx

(Old photo but deal with it, I’ve not showered haha)
I just had genuine excitement for my tea tonight! We’re using the left over roast lamb, which terrified me so much on Sunday, to make a casserole thing with haricot beans and tomato sauce and herbs and stuff and I think it’ll be really tasty.
Also how weird is it that all the people on tumblr are actual genuine people out there doing something right now? Sorry that’s just an odd thought to dwell on…

(Old photo but deal with it, I’ve not showered haha)
I just had genuine excitement for my tea tonight! We’re using the left over roast lamb, which terrified me so much on Sunday, to make a casserole thing with haricot beans and tomato sauce and herbs and stuff and I think it’ll be really tasty.
Also how weird is it that all the people on tumblr are actual genuine people out there doing something right now? Sorry that’s just an odd thought to dwell on…

Meet the blogger tag
I was tagged by my lovely friend brogan, thanks honey!
Name: Heather
Age: 18

Gender: Female

Selfie: I’ll post one sometime soon!

Favourite - 
Food: Cherries, chocolate, italian food, Japanese food or mexican food.
Drink: Any tea but i mainly drink green
Book: Harry Potter series, Wuthering Heighs, Alice in Wonderland

Author: J.K.Rowling
Song: Currently ‘Manic Depression’ by Emilie Autumn
Movie: Anastasia, For The Love Of Nancy (although major TW), house at the end of the street, scream, the breakfast club, sleeping beauty, Robin Hood and Hercules
Tv show: Chuck, doctor who, criminal minds, game of thrones, great british bake off, masterchef, made in chelsea
Band: canterbury, you me at six, bring me the horizon, pegasus bridge, civil twilight, bastille and also emilie autumn even though she’s not a band
Place: Boscastle in Cornwall
Subject: modern studies or English 
Sport: Swimming
Male actor: Zachary Levi and david tennant plus many more
Female actor: Jennifer Lawrence, Yvonne strahovski

Life -
Best friend: Fair Mackay
Siblings: 15 year old sister called Alex, 19 year old sister called Kirsten
Dream job: …criminologist with a side of teashop running (it’ll happen)
Political ideology: generally left wing and definitely against scottish independence
Religion: Non religious
Tattoos: None
 (yet)
Piercing: earlobes and double auricle
Languages: English and veery basic French

Tumblr -

Reason behind URL: I just really like Harry potter…
Reason behind icon: A picture of me and my sister, taken from when i was healthy, that i was truly happy in
Tracked tags: edrecovery
Why you joined: To have somewhere that i could post more personal stuff and see if anyone was interested, since then it has developed into a recovery blog to show my progress, help me and hopefully help other people
First URL: I can’t even remember sorry

Number of blogs: I have another blog called muggleshavegardengnomestoo but I’m never on it these days ~ it’s mainly harry potter, dr who and there’s a couple of triggering reblogs I think
I tag: a-merry-gathering, finding-jodi, victoriajoanne, metamorphosisofmeg

My best friend just told me about her relapse with bulimia and I’m so scared and worried for her. I hate eating disorders I fucking hate them. I’m supposed to keep her happy and I just want her to see how much she’s helped me and how good a person she is, I just wish this didn’t happen to anyone AT ALL never mind the loveliest people on the planet. I feel so useless I just want to see her and make her okay but I can’t I just can’t help right now.

finding-jodi asked:

Heather I fucking love you and I hope you know that. You are a massive source of inspiration for me and I am rooting for you girl! Lots of love and hugs xxxxxx

This was so sweet, thank you so much jodi I fucking love you too and honestly you are such an inspiration to me too! Xxx

Today started off badly, my thoughts were really loud, I was freaking out with guilt over breakfast, I was panicking over my lack of meal plans and not knowing what I’m having for tea and I snapped at my dad for no good reason. I could have let my day continue that way, but instead I went into town, spent some of my birthday money on some new shoes, came home and ate lunch and a lovely apple crumble. Now I’m going to watch some MasterChef then spend my evening catching up with my sister over a bottle of wine, and not giving a fuck about how many calories it has.